time for my yearly update...

Well since i last wrote i have had a job making people feel bad about themselve, one that didn't pay me anything, one that i was managed by a younger boy that was in high school, one that i was micro-managed  and spied on, and one that finally fell into my lap and i have kept AND liked for about 3.5 months...i'm a drug dealer.  people call me asking for drugs all the time and i use ups to get them there.  never a question, they always do what i ask...if you don't know or can't figure it out...i am in pharmaceutical sales...sort of.  "drug dealer sounds more fun...oh and my office is on the corner too :o)

i remember using this to write about interesting things that are happening in my life.  everyday something interesting would happen or i would make something that wasn't interesting and write about it...now i just get up, go to the gym, work all day, and come home.  it's not that exciting or interesting, which is probably the reason it's been a year since i've written.  Seriously if you want to keep up with me, make a myspace page or facebook page... www.myspace.com/tcugirly  and www.facebook.com (look for me under my full name :o)

It's been awhile :o)

Well things are going better again.  I think i should only write when things are good.  I have gotten a full time job at University of Phoenix.  i will start next monday.  It's been forever since i have written on here.  I went through a patch of some hard months, and tried desperately to figure out what God's will was for me in the situations he's placed me in.

I have come to the conclusion that i am supposed to stay in McKinney, Texas for no other reason but the kids i know and love in Young Life.  I mean i have tried to leave 3x and this last time (april) was by far the hardest pull ever...but I had to go with what God was saying to me "STAY".  Sometimes the hardest thing by far is to stay put where He's placed you...at least that's the way i feel.  I also was reminded of the statement "the RIGHT thing, at the WRONG time, is the WRONG thing"...applied to my situation about leaving and it's pretty clear that i am staying...even though the opportunity was amazing.

Hope that everyone is good.  If you don't have a myspace page you should get one, and ask me to be your freind :o)  my site is www.myspace.com/tcugirly

ttyl.

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Doin' Much Better...

Well the last couple of weeks were rough.  I will say this, when God wants to bring His children back to Himself... well me... sometimes He'll let us fall so far down, that the only and absolutely only way out is back to Him...through Christ.  Lots of heartache these last few weeks, but i am thankful for being able to run straight to Jesus.

i quit my job at my church

i have volunteered to teach english to some Vietnamese ladies.

i don't know what's next for me, but hopefully God will reveal it to me.

my recruiting website...pass it on... www.homewithpurpose.net (no i won't write about this every time..)

going to sleep now.  Things are better, but i am sleepy.  Check out myspace and say hi if you have time... www.myspace.com/tcugirly

It's been awhile

Hello there all my readers...well i am pretty sure that i took a little time off.  i have been so busy lately that i don't even have time to update xanga...or write emails back...anyway, right now i am having a hard time.

i think that when i came back from Poland, i jumped into a lot and never actually really processed what i had been through these last 2 years.  I have been back in America for 6 months.  Everything isn't NEW anymore, it's supposed to be "normal".  But i am sorry the daily grind here in this country isn't exactly fulfilling my purpose in life.  i think that a lot of how i am feeling right now is because i didn't rely on Jesus.  I have been putting my hope and trying to please other people.  Gosh, i am so stupid! 

so right now i am just blah...my heart is being broken and torn in a thousand different ways, and all i can do right now is cry.  i am watching tv so i don't have to cry for an hour.  my roommate's dog just climbed onto me and i am going to let him love on me now.  have a good weekend.

Well it's been ab eventful weekend.  I went to a party 2 nights in a row.  It was SO MUCH FUN.  I haven't been what you would call "social" like i was in college in about 3 years.  I had a great talk with some guys that actually went to TCU, but they were a year younger...

now i am sitting at my desk at the church.  things are going well.  i did A LOT of work yesterday, so working all day, or pretending to work is actually harder than really working!  but i will try to stay until about 3:30 or 4.  Then i get to go to PARTYLAND and buy some balloons to decorate Scott's car for YoungLife tonight.

let me know what's goin' on.  I haven't been on here in a LONG time, sorry to all my faithful readers out there.

going to see matthew tomorrow...i am excited!